What would you do if you knew your world would end within a few short weeks?
What would you want to get out of life? What would you want to achieve and leave as your legacy?
These are questions I have had to answer myself recently and try to understand, not always easy to understand either.
Without surgery my life would have been cut short within a few weeks, not just that I would not have been able to achieve half the things I had set out to do in my life.
I already know I haven’t managed to achieve most of them but may have the time now to do so! I can follow my dreams and try and become a milkman!
A fully-fledged milkman! A beautiful dairy produce delivery man, with a flat cap and a crap electric van! Gosh, that would be the life!
OBVIOUSLY, I am not joking! I would love to be a milkman for a day, but not all my life! Saying that I did idolise the milkman as a kid! I was like this dude comes daily with Nesquik and milk! Legendary status!
I guess I saw him as a legend as much as Rory the tiger and trees! Tree’s they needed exploring! I remember thinking as a kid if I climb that tree outside, I would be the talk of the town! I may even get to neverland! Being a kid, the tree seemed a lot bigger than it really was! Probably was only 4ft and I was just 2ft, but to me it was humungous! A huge monolith of a tree to conquer!
Me and Joel would try get to the top of this tree, pretend we were pirates and just being imaginative and playful kids!
Wow I have gone off piste again! I do that a lot now! I remember things from my past vividly and want to get them out into the world.
But what would I do if I was given just a week to live!
How would I budget my time, how would I spend those last days?
I think the simple answer is I don’t know! I have ideas of things I would instantly do, but I think there is a defiance in me that simply will not give in! I will not ever let someone say that’s it Daniel! This is my life, this is my life to lead not some stupid cancer or doctor!
I know this though, I would make it as entertaining and as fun filled as possible! I am a joker at the best of times, I would try make everyone I met smile, laugh and hopefully not cry.
I would love to just explore for my final days, end my days somewhere of beauty, somewhere I can truly appreciate the beauty of the world.
I think that is a major thing for me now, the beauty of the world is fascinating now for me, I am able to find the beauty in almost anything. I have compassion that I never expected to have for others and I am able to help people effortlessly now, it is not a chore to be nice.
Does that make sense? I used to be an actual arse hole! I mean the nastiest of nasties! I would step over you to get to where I wanted to be! I now realise that life was meaningless, that made people hate me, despise me, resent me, leave me and most of all not trust me!
The change in my lifestyle has been huge, I would love nothing more than to now go educate, teach and inspire people all over the world to smile, laugh and be themselves. There is nothing more satisfying than accepting your flaws and being yourself!
That second that the chain gets broken and the cord gets cut to all the downers in your life you feel free!
I know I feel free even though I am going through the most difficult time of my life.