If anyone knows like personally they would say I can’t survive without a few things, now hospital becomes restrictive in my quest for these things!
One is the beach as I go and see it ever single day, I skateboard down and appreciate it so much every time I see it. The way the light glimmers of the ocean is just something to behold!
Two, Films now I can do this in hospital and luckily have good internet and tethering so can watch on my iPad or laptop. I must have watch lost boys and ready player one about ten times now since I have been here. I need to buy more off Amazon! Lol
Three and most importantly is fine food, I am a foodie, I love food and I only really like proper nice food, delicate flavours and a well sized portion. In hospital you don’t get this stuff. BUT… you do get insanely good food in this hospital with a huge selection of things to have.
Four… Blue Balls, now you may remember before I have a few issues with getting my plumbing to work anyways so not too much of an issue. Psychologically though it is taking a toll, as if I am less of a man as I can’t physically get a boner! Maybe funny to some but seriously it really affects me, in a way I never thought it would, genuine sadness that I can’t get it up! Hey ho we know why and should be fixed soon enough!
Five… Freedom! I am a freespirit! I am a free person, who loves to advocate being free and breaking the rules of the norm to get further and that is exactly what I want to get into people’s heads. I am unfortunately too weak to even contemplate being active, I have lost a lot of weight and need to put it back on and then I should feel better to go be more active.
I could list a lot more but I also miss my skateboard! My doggy and family, I am a long way from home and it is a bit of a strange place to be surrounded by very sick people twice my age.
I sometimes find myself becoming jealous of them, thinking I won’t even get to your age and you are complaining. I have accepted a lot but doesn’t mean I won’t carry on fighting every single day to get where I want to be!
I also recently got with a girl, what’s funny is I have been single a long time! My private life is exactly that, private but even when dying or sick you still want companionship.
I think I may write a book about it, as it seems a book worthy thing in my opinion I would enjoy reading it!
Anyways, smile, be yourself, don’t be afraid to share what you feel, who cares if people judge you!
