Laughter & Being Fearless Is What Keeps Me Alive, Fresh Starts & Coffee!

Ok, so we know cancer sucks but imagine having it for almost 5 years and knowing about it for just 3 of those meaning the bastard had around 2 years to mutate and play games with your body!

I love my little cancer, you’re thinking why? Well it has given me purpose in what was a very dark and miserable world for me. I was always some kind of failure and never seemed to find anything I was actually good at and found it hard to make friend and communicate with others.

LOSER comes to mind! I was a total loser, bum you could say! I worked very hard but at the same time I had no value when it came to the world. I always used to make jokes at my expense or let others make them and then take it!

Back in 2017 I had enough of all this and just got away from it all! Harsh but I upped and left! I couldn’t take the pressure of this life I had built! I had set myself up for failure in everything!

I now live out of a suitcase, I live where I can, and I live every day and treasure every single interaction I have with people as they really do make me treasure every day.

This life is what I call a fearless life! I call this my life and I am determined to win at everything! That doesn’t mean I want to beat other people to it! I do not want to step on others to get there but I do want to succeed at life and live it to the fullest!

One of my dreams is to see the world, see war torn countries, see aid workers and people in places that are just inaccessible. This is the life I want to lead!

I am fearless! I would jump out of a plane without a parachute if I knew there was a 10% chance I would live! I have hit that stage in life where fear doesn’t rule me!

Furious I am at everything that has happened but fearless in my approach to it all!

So, from now on I will never complain, wallow and be sad for more than a day! I think a day is an adequate amount of time to get over yourself and move on! For me it is at least!

This life is for living, laughing and nurturing future generations to live, laugh and love. I know I can’t help everyone, but I wish I could! I want to find out more about how others cope with cancer, how families cope with the devastating loss and how they keep their memories alive and how friends, strangers and everyone perceives cancer.

It intrigues me, as a researcher (I have now decided I am as I have to as no one else will) into the effects of cancer on individuals I am intrigued by every aspect!

I can’t wait to expand my Journey on this and inspire as many people as I can on the way 🙂

Want to help me find treatment and research hit up this link 🙂 —>Go Fund Me<—

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About PeeWeeToms

So what's the story? Well in 2015 I was diagnosed with a Sarcomatoid Carcinoma. To say the least it was aweful, I have managed to get through three years now with it coming back with vengance 4 times. On the 29th December 2017 I found it had likely spread. This is my dialogue with myself.

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One Comment on “Laughter & Being Fearless Is What Keeps Me Alive, Fresh Starts & Coffee!”

  1. Hello Peeweetoms, I hope today was another adventure for you 🙂
    Do you mind me asking if you ever did test out Cannibis oil on yourself? I hope you don’t mind but i followed you here to your blog after you left a comment about it on a cancer help site – I was trying to see if anyone had actaully tried it. My Dad has myeloma so I do have a vested interest in personal accounts – that haven’t been splashed all over the media ( especially here in the UK)
    Thanks Jo x

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