So, cancer and me have a really long history now, I am also getting slightly sicker by the day which sucks a lot! I mean a hell of a lot!
I was doing a vlog today and I found that I had another lump in my side which is the last thing I wanted! Like honestly that was the last thing I wanted!
I have a scan tomorrow to ultimately determine what seems my fate! How can a scan determine my fate! I hate that idea! It makes me angry actually! Anyways below is a video of me finding this new lump 🙁
Now I had prior to this been mega positive, pushing forward with everything full force, but I just have that overwhelming fear of everything now.
Being positive is hard when your in pain most the time, the pain is extreme sometimes as well. I have no idea what the hell is going on in my body now and drives me mad! Actually mad!
I did a video with my dad the other day and he said I was mad anyway! So, maybe I am a little mad :/
This is what my dad and brother had to day about me 🙂
A week ago now we had to see the doctors and find out what was happening and they basically told me, I may not be able to have surgery as it may not help now. If it has spread to much then I can’t really do much about it. Which fucking sucks so much! It’s like the worst feeling when someone says that to you!
I just hope I can find an answer to this riddle soon, or know whats going to happen, the wait is agonising!
I asked my mom how she felt and its in the video below.
I have recieved a lot of hate off people in the mean time, evil trolls and arseholes! But I promise from now on I will try update everyone more in my Blog. Head over to my vlog if you want to see my daily vlogs 🙂
Hi PeeWee Love you upbeat vibe with the battle of the lump. Keep up the hard work and don’t let the dis-ease own you. Accidentally stumbled upon your video in YouTube. I too have been where you are now but holy heck would not be able to pronounce yours without having it written on my hand at all times. Needless to say quite a tongue twister and a challenge. Will keep watching with abated breath. <3
You are VERY brave Peeweetoms! And I feel honored and thrilled to share your life path. Just a few suggestions:
Try to improve your diet. More fruits and vegetables.
Get some CBD oil. To HELL with the law. It will really help.
Realize your suicide attempt(s) were a natural reaction to a very difficult diagnosis. And if the pain gets too unbearable, a more calm and loving end of life decision may be to your advantage. We have that option here in Oregon
Consider some kind of clinical trial.
Continue your social media as much as you can so ALL OF US, around the world, can give you our love, strength, encouragement, and suggestions.
You are an inspiration and a beacon of what humanity should really be.
All my best wishes to you… Love Lily
Not sick No one close to me is sick. Stumbled on your site quite by accident. (Is there such a thing?). Just wanted u to know. Your mom and dad are soo fucking cute sorry but there are. You are soo lucky.